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It’s been awhile since I’ve sat down and taken the time to analyze what’s been happening in my life. It always seems to happen when parts of my life are coming to an end and birthing new beginnings. I’m trying to think of the words I use more carefully now, being more aware of what my thoughts are and how they can manifest into great things. Or not so great things..

My life isn’t even remotely close to what it was when I wrote the last time. So many incredible paths have been placed in front of me to take. I’ve faced hardships and been blessed with amazing opportunities. Life truly is a crazy rollercoaster ride that we can’t even begin grasp but the adventure is what is so magnificent. Here I am once again, faced with a difficult path ahead, unable to grasp what the future will look like. I’m hopeful that it will be greater than anything I could’ve imagined. A future filled with ease. How I wish to live a life filled with ease. Ease in relationships, ease with family, ease with money. After spending so long in what felt like a vortex of struggle, I want to laugh and play and smile more. I want to feel as light as a feather and soar towards the feeling of relief.

The time will come where ease will be an every day thing and I know I’ll feel that way again soon. For now, it’s okay to feel a little angry and grieve the death of my past self, the end of a chapter that I needed to go through to get to where I am now. I am where I am for now and that’s okay. I know I’m not a tree and I know I’m never stuck in one place or one state of mind.

-A.