absoluteinvolution: real, raw & relatable.

They say you should create without the expectation of anyone seeing it, write without thinking anyone will read it. So here I am, after taking some time to work on my personal life I’m ready to get back into it.

I feel like so much has happened in such a small amount of time. Going through an active separation, living far from all my family, my circle of friends seemingly minimizing every day before my eyes. Yet at the same time, finding new friendships, rekindling old ones, putting more energy into people who do the same for me. It’s been a total rollercoaster of emotions and I’ve welcomed them all with open arms and sometimes teary eyes. Regardless of the emotions attached to them, I’m managing to get through everything with pride. I’ve accepted the things I cannot change and strive to work through the ones I can with patience and understanding.

I’m so thankful for those around me who’ve chosen to stick by my side. Those who’ve listened to me vent with open ears and no judgement. Those who haven’t felt the need to tell me to stop focusing on the negative, but rather understand that the Universe needs both sides of the spectrum and that sometimes the we need to focus on the negatives so we can see what we no longer want. The negatives, just like the positive helps of gain perspective. Without one or the other, there is no equal balance. Things cannot be right if there isn’t both things. How can we truly appreciate and know what happiness is, without having understood sadness? Or know what pride feels like, if we haven’t experienced disappointment? Everything has an opposite, it’s just how things are.

I will forever be grateful for those in my life who truly see me for who I am, who support my dreams and my wishes. Who push me to be the best version of myself, who are brutally honest with me when I may not want to, but need to hear it.

I love you all, I will always be here for you just as I know you’ll always stay with me.

-A.