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Every fibre of my being craves you. Every piece of me begs for you to be by my side. I find myself waking up in the middle of the night, reaching out to the side of the bed you shared with me. The sunsets feel a little emptier without you. The Moon and stars are a little more quiet without you here.

I wish I could hold you, take your face in my hands gently and tell you with every descriptive word in the dictionary just how deeply I love you. I do, I love you with every fibre of my being. Every single piece of me loves you. I see straight through the thickest layers of armour you wear. They say the eyes are the mirror to the soul, and Love I see your soul…

I love every light and every darkness equally. I love the soft and I love the sharp. I know the violence you’re capable of, how it molded you into the man you are now. I know it wasn’t your first choice, I know it consumes you at night. I see the pain it’s caused you, the scars that adorn your body. With that, I also see the softness, the kindness, the compassion and empathy you have for your fellow human beings. I see the way it’s given you a newfound outlook on life, not to be wasted on frivolous things. The way your eyes lock into every sunset, every sunrise, every star and every simplistic thing. You appreciate it all, you are the epitome of “slow down and smell the flowers”.

I’d rather be alone for eternity than try to fill the void with people who will never see me the way you did. You are the other end of my red string, my invisible thread. The final piece of my puzzle. You are the body to my rib, two people made so perfectly for each other. In a bar filled with lust, I had every bit of your attention. You made me feel like I was the only thing that mattered.

I hope you see this, I hope you soak up every moment. Knowing within yourself that there will be no one that compares to you. I’d rather spend the rest of my life alone, than share it with anyone else.

I loved you then, I love you now, I’ll love you forever.

-A.