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019: Opening up means trusting others…
New relationships are always terrifying. Learning how other people handle life, emotions, upsets and everything else feels so overwhelming at times. Opening up to someone new, sharing your traumas with them, communicating your wants and needs… It’s all part of the hunt for your person. Now add in doing that…
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018: Can we kiss forever?
You were supposed to be nothing more than a momentary sensation. Something to fill a space for the time being, a warm body to remind me that I can actually feel. With all that being said, I’m glad you became so much more. For once in my life, I find…
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018: Before I make my final run, I will stay with you.
They say you should create without the expectation of anyone seeing it, write without thinking anyone will read it. So here I am, after taking some time to work on my personal life I’m ready to get back into it. I feel like so much has happened in such a…
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017: Why we playin’ safe when it’s dangerous.
Absolute involution. Becoming self aware, beginning to live ones truest self. The first steps to coming into your own. Awakening. The sensations of freedom, the ease of life. The universe has a funny way of placing people in your path when you absolutely need it. Sometimes those people are new…
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016: Tonight I saved my life, when I showed you the door.
Strength. Something I’ve always been known for. Something that everyone asked me how I had so much of. I don’t know where it comes from, or how I got so much of it. It’s something that has just happened after years of emotional abuse at the hands of people who…
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015: You’re not a tree, you’re not stuck.
Every day that passes I realize how much I’ve grown as a woman in the last 4 months. I don’t want to go back to being unhappy with my life or myself. I want to keep the waters smooth. I’ve learned so much recently. What I’m willing to accept, what…
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014: It’s always on the tip of my tongue.
These damn full moons always get me in my feelings. There must be something seriously aligned with my birth chart for this particular Moon because as much as I try, I can’t seem to shake off all the emotions. I thought it would be a good time to get myself…
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013: Between comfort & chaos.
Gasping for air, but you can breath just fine. You’re safe, you’re protected, yet so close to the danger zone. What a thrill, to feel so alive and so close to death at the same time. Recklessly careful, heated exchanges. Blood rushing to your extremities, tingling sensations flowing through your…
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012: In the middle of the night.
My thoughts go back to you. Looking up into your eyes and seeing the fires of a thousand wars. The eternal flames of inner battles you struggle with silently. The thoughts you suppress in your mind while I await your guidance. A back and forth, yin and yang. Peace and…
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011: Letting go.
I’m letting go. Letting go of the idea of perfection, the idea that everything needs to have a reason or purpose. I want things to just be. Allow them to thrive on their own for no other reason than the fact that they exist. See where life takes me when…
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010: Given the circumstances.
Don’t you love when things just fall into place? Manifestations you were really putting your energy into come to fruition and you feel accomplished. Finally, for the first time in a while, you feel like you can breathe a sign of relief after months, or years of drowning in your…
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009: I can’t, but I will.
Everyone can benefit from a mental break sometimes. Life’s heaviness can feel inescapable and before you find yourself splashing around violently in an ocean of overwhelming emotion, check in with yourself. Find something that can take you away from it all, even just for a moment. Whatever that may be…
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008: the idea of love & the feminine divine.
I’ve always been a hopeless romantic, regardless of the concrete exterior I portray to the general public. Once I connect with someone on a certain level, they’re allowed to see a side of me not many do. I think it’s this way with most people who have built up walls.…
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007: If it matters to you.
I used to admire you. Your courage, your ability to put yourself first. I used to think of you as this perfect figure, without flaws that couldn’t be justified. Imagining myself alongside you in an ideal world. Rolling hills, a tiny brick house we called our own in a foreign…
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006: Try as you might.
Sometimes I wish I had the patience of a thousand monk. To not react when feeling provoked, to take a mental step back and assess something instead of wanting to fight it head-on. I’ve always been this way. Confrontational, ready for battle, willing to break my own back to prove…
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005: I’m not unhinged or unhappy, I’m just wild..
Every time I seem to be facing a serious crisis in life, I run. Some people drink, some turn to drugs, meaningless flings with strangers. I become a track star. Running as far and as fast as I possibly can to get away from whatever it is causing me to…
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004: Lovely to be rained on with you.
Eyes meet and the feeling of adrenaline courses through your veins. You stop to soak it in, even just for a moment. The sensation of being alive, truly alive. How blessed to be able and healthy enough to experience. Never something to be taken for granted or forgotten. Running to…
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003: A love letter to me.
In the quiet moments of the night, I find myself consumed by the thoughts of the past. All that remains are fleeting memories. A carefree time where the only thing that mattered, was you. Don’t forget. Don’t let those memories fade. For they have stayed with me throughout hardships and…
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002: Started from the Bottom.
Starting anything new can be extremely terrifying and I’ve had my fair share of new. Attempted to model, selling clothing, making clothing, tattooing, homemade bath products, you name it. Every SAHM side hustle you can think of, short of MLMs and Feet Finder. Although I’m not opposed to looking into…
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001: Nobody said it was easy.
It’s been awhile since I’ve sat down and taken the time to analyze what’s been happening in my life. It always seems to happen when parts of my life are coming to an end and birthing new beginnings. I’m trying to think of the words I use more carefully now,…
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